Bucky hummed a bit in thoguht before answering ‘’I did when i was in the army.. and when i was a young adult… I don’t think i ever did as a kid though.. i know the army for sure, we all had our roles and cooking was passed down to everyone depending on the week, we’d each take a week to cook for our group. When we were. Actually at war… we’d do what we can… but.. cooking liek this.. wasnt really a uh… uh.. ‘man’s’ job if you know what i mean,, the 20’s 30’s and 40’s.. well.. to cook was mroe of a woman’s job or that of a male chefs.. not really.. the. Uh.. guys.. job’’ bucky siad and said a bit sheepishly at the end there. ‘’I do remmeber that i do like cooking… and i also remember that steve was the scrawniest guy youd ever seen’’ bucky stated and chuckled ‘’ i will say form what i do remember, this era.. is much.. much different than what i grew up in and what i. Fought in…. Before the whole hydra thing…. There are all these.. new rules… about what you can and cant say now..how to act…. And.. all these.. tech things everywhere… its.. weird… and… i dont know.. back then things were.. simpler.. minus the wars of course and of course certain social things….. but even so.. you knew exactly what your job in life was… you knew form a early age what to do and say and thn things just… went along with you… now.. i dont know it feels like… its just a ne world’’ bucky siad with a shrug as they ate,
Cecelia giggled lightly and moved back so she could look at Clint. ‘’Lets just say.. as.. lame as this is.. this is.. actually my first.. real.. kiss.. any time a ‘guy’ if you can call em that, has kissed me, its either been ont he hand or on the cheek, thats it..’’ she said gently and tucked some hair behind her ears as she blushed a bit and sighed ‘’ so.. what.. do we do now? I mean… are.. like.. togetehr now? We sould we tell people? Ive never had a real relationship with smeone actually have feelings for… so i have no clue what im dong hhere’’ she siad and chuckled as she leaned into Clint’s arms more. She lvoed feleing his arms aorund her. It felt.. safe.. it felt… like home.. something she hadnt really ever had before.
Bucky hummed a bit in thoguht before answering ‘’I did when i was in the army.. and when i was a young adult… I don’t think i ever did as a kid though.. i know the army for sure, we all had our roles and cooking was passed down to everyone depending on the week, we’d each take a week to cook for our group. When we were. Actually at war… we’d do what we can… but.. cooking liek this.. wasnt really a uh… uh.. ‘man’s’ job if you know what i mean,, the 20’s 30’s and 40’s.. well.. to cook was mroe of a woman’s job or that of a male chefs.. not really.. the. Uh.. guys.. job’’ bucky siad and said a bit sheepishly at the end there. ‘’I do remmeber that i do like cooking… and i also remember that steve was the scrawniest guy youd ever seen’’ bucky stated and chuckled ‘’ i will say form what i do remember, this era.. is much.. much different than what i grew up in and what i. Fought in…. Before the whole hydra thing…. There are all these.. new rules… about what you can and cant say now..how to act…. And.. all these.. tech things everywhere… its.. weird… and… i dont know.. back then things were.. simpler.. minus the wars of course and of course certain social things….. but even so.. you knew exactly what your job in life was… you knew form a early age what to do and say and thn things just… went along with you… now.. i dont know it feels like… its just a ne world’’ bucky siad with a shrug as they ate,
Cecelia giggled lightly and moved back so she could look at Clint. ‘’Lets just say.. as.. lame as this is.. this is.. actually my first.. real.. kiss.. any time a ‘guy’ if you can call em that, has kissed me, its either been ont he hand or on the cheek, thats it..’’ she said gently and tucked some hair behind her ears as she blushed a bit and sighed ‘’ so.. what.. do we do now? I mean… are.. like.. togetehr now? We sould we tell people? Ive never had a real relationship with smeone actually have feelings for… so i have no clue what im dong hhere’’ she siad and chuckled as she leaned into Clint’s arms more. She lvoed feleing his arms aorund her. It felt.. safe.. it felt… like home.. something she hadnt really ever had before.
Alessa was eating as she listened to Bucky's answer and took a drink of her pop before she spoke. "Steve told me alot of food was boiled back then. Gross" she said, laughing at the last word. "I can't even stand boiled hot dogs, either BBQ or pan fried or nothing. Well raw is okay on occasion I guess. But I get the whole gender identity thing, even when I was growing up it was kind of like that" she began. "But you're right, alot has changed. Though I'm sure there were things you could and couldn't say back then too, just it was more gender or rank related compared to in general like now. Sometimes it's alot to take in as times change, I mean, the 90s definitely weren't this bad when I was a kid. Life was but not the social world" she explained. "Don't worry, you'll figure it out soon enough and you've got people here to help you too if you're ever unsure" she added with a smile before eating some more.
Clint smiled at Cecilia with a soft chuckle at her bombarding of questions. "Well if that's what you want, I'm good with it. I haven't been with someone since high school, and I don't even know how much of a real relationship that was either. But I'd like to find out, with you. As far as telling people, we can if you'd like, or keep it on the low until we both feel ready to tell the others. Just means we have to keep things professional for now, but after yesterday I'm pretty sure they're going to taunt us non stop. Personally I'm completely okay with telling them, I have no shame in admitting I'm with you" he told her honestly.
Alessa was eating as she listened to Bucky's answer and took a drink of her pop before she spoke. "Steve told me alot of food was boiled back then. Gross" she said, laughing at the last word. "I can't even stand boiled hot dogs, either BBQ or pan fried or nothing. Well raw is okay on occasion I guess. But I get the whole gender identity thing, even when I was growing up it was kind of like that" she began. "But you're right, alot has changed. Though I'm sure there were things you could and couldn't say back then too, just it was more gender or rank related compared to in general like now. Sometimes it's alot to take in as times change, I mean, the 90s definitely weren't this bad when I was a kid. Life was but not the social world" she explained. "Don't worry, you'll figure it out soon enough and you've got people here to help you too if you're ever unsure" she added with a smile before eating some more.
Clint smiled at Cecilia with a soft chuckle at her bombarding of questions. "Well if that's what you want, I'm good with it. I haven't been with someone since high school, and I don't even know how much of a real relationship that was either. But I'd like to find out, with you. As far as telling people, we can if you'd like, or keep it on the low until we both feel ready to tell the others. Just means we have to keep things professional for now, but after yesterday I'm pretty sure they're going to taunt us non stop. Personally I'm completely okay with telling them, I have no shame in admitting I'm with you" he told her honestly.
Cecelia smield gently at Clint ‘’I’d like to find that out too.. with you of course’’ she said and kissed his lips breifly, ‘’ as for telling everyone.. im okay with telling the team.. just.t. Maybe not Fury… at least not right awya.. he kinda… scares me a bit when he gets all.. excited…’’ she said and chuckled bit ‘’but im happy ith telling the team, and or letting hem figur eit out themselves.. and besides, Natasha is already tainting me about you.. same with tony.. Wanda not so much but she wnats to know every small detail and its very overwhelming’’’ she added and laughed gently.. ‘’I just wnat to be with you.. thats really.. all i care about’’ she siad softly as she held Clint to her.
bucky laughed a bit and nodded ‘’most things were boiled, and we used whatever we had a ai le to make different dishes.. most didnt turn out suepr good, but its what we had and we made do with it’’ he said with a shrug. ‘’food thoguh form my time versus now.. id say now, wins hands down..’’ hee added and smield a bit.. hearing what Alessa said thoguh amde him pause… ‘’gender wasnt so much an issues, we all knew our ‘roles’ so to speak it was.. mroe… race.. that was an issue back then.. i know im. Ym squad int he army, we had a couple corroded men… i.. i cant.. remember their names… but i see their faces..and.. form what i remember.. they were good soilders.. good men.. ‘’ he said, his face giving this far off look as his mind peices togetehr parts of the war, the squads, the platoons, the sounds… it made his ears ring, hearing in his ehad some fo the old sounds he once forgot… he jumped slightly when Alessa called out to him ‘’ i have to go’’ he said quickly and pushed his chair away, the startled and frazzled look on his face not leaving as his head started to hurt form his mind trying so hard to remember things.
Cecelia smield gently at Clint ‘’I’d like to find that out too.. with you of course’’ she said and kissed his lips breifly, ‘’ as for telling everyone.. im okay with telling the team.. just.t. Maybe not Fury… at least not right awya.. he kinda… scares me a bit when he gets all.. excited…’’ she said and chuckled bit ‘’but im happy ith telling the team, and or letting hem figur eit out themselves.. and besides, Natasha is already tainting me about you.. same with tony.. Wanda not so much but she wnats to know every small detail and its very overwhelming’’’ she added and laughed gently.. ‘’I just wnat to be with you.. thats really.. all i care about’’ she siad softly as she held Clint to her.
bucky laughed a bit and nodded ‘’most things were boiled, and we used whatever we had a ai le to make different dishes.. most didnt turn out suepr good, but its what we had and we made do with it’’ he said with a shrug. ‘’food thoguh form my time versus now.. id say now, wins hands down..’’ hee added and smield a bit.. hearing what Alessa said thoguh amde him pause… ‘’gender wasnt so much an issues, we all knew our ‘roles’ so to speak it was.. mroe… race.. that was an issue back then.. i know im. Ym squad int he army, we had a couple corroded men… i.. i cant.. remember their names… but i see their faces..and.. form what i remember.. they were good soilders.. good men.. ‘’ he said, his face giving this far off look as his mind peices togetehr parts of the war, the squads, the platoons, the sounds… it made his ears ring, hearing in his ehad some fo the old sounds he once forgot… he jumped slightly when Alessa called out to him ‘’ i have to go’’ he said quickly and pushed his chair away, the startled and frazzled look on his face not leaving as his head started to hurt form his mind trying so hard to remember things.
Clint smiled more at Cecilia "You know I think you're right. I don't think we need to hide or announce anything. If someone asks, we'll tell them, we dont need to do alot of pda or anything but not keep our distance either, we'll keep it comfortable for us" he suggested to her as he gently kissed her forehead. "One step at a time, a real relationship is pretty new for both of us" he added. "I do think we should go on a date, maybe tomorrow? Dinner?" He suggested to her.
Alessa nodded slightly when Bucky said it was more racial than gender issues. She never really considered that since they had Rhodes and Wilson on the team, sort of. Sam for sure anyways. Alessa looked over at Bucky when he fell silent. "Bucky?" She said softly with a hand on his shoulder, though she moved it away when he seemed to jump and take off. "Was it something I said?" Alessa asked more to herself since no one else was around. Alessa sighed and looked at her almost empty bowl, her appetite gone. She finished the last couple bites, taking Bucky's and covering it with saran wrap and marking his initials on it then put the other left overs away and started cleaning the kitchen up.
Clint smiled more at Cecilia "You know I think you're right. I don't think we need to hide or announce anything. If someone asks, we'll tell them, we dont need to do alot of pda or anything but not keep our distance either, we'll keep it comfortable for us" he suggested to her as he gently kissed her forehead. "One step at a time, a real relationship is pretty new for both of us" he added. "I do think we should go on a date, maybe tomorrow? Dinner?" He suggested to her.
Alessa nodded slightly when Bucky said it was more racial than gender issues. She never really considered that since they had Rhodes and Wilson on the team, sort of. Sam for sure anyways. Alessa looked over at Bucky when he fell silent. "Bucky?" She said softly with a hand on his shoulder, though she moved it away when he seemed to jump and take off. "Was it something I said?" Alessa asked more to herself since no one else was around. Alessa sighed and looked at her almost empty bowl, her appetite gone. She finished the last couple bites, taking Bucky's and covering it with saran wrap and marking his initials on it then put the other left overs away and started cleaning the kitchen up.
‘’Hey there mini Barton! ‘’ tony said as he came intot he room a couple minutes after Bucky darted off. He was with steve, sam and Natasha as they all walke din. ‘’Hey you seen bucky anywhere?’’ Steve asked as he looked at ASlessa, ‘’ he is currently locking himself in his room,his heart rate is elevated hevaily and he seems to be having pain in his head,on the left side mostly’’ Friday answered ‘’what the hell is worng with him?’’ Tony asked as he grabbed some scotch ‘’he’s having a panic attack. It happens when his mind is trying to remmeber stuff, the therapist fury is making him see said it’ll happen a lot as they try to restructure his brain, ive been talking to Shuri in wakanda, about maybe helping him.. ill go check on him.’’ Steve said gently but the worry was clear in his vocie as he elft ot go check on his friend.. menawhile bucky was very much panicking.. but he didnt understand why.. and he didnt understand fully why or how it was connected to not only what hydra did to him but also him trying to remember naything from his past.
Cecelia smiled at Clint and nodded’ ‘that’s sounds like the eprfect plan Clint’’ she siad and smiled happily at him ‘’Im a pretty private perosn in general.. so.. keeping it between us an donly saying somehting if someone asks.. is actually tthe best plan ever for me’’ she siad and giggled. A bit.. when he mentioned a date, preferably dinner tomorrow, that gave her an idea‘’I’d liek that.. but not just nay dinner.. i have a uh.. idea, if youre okay with me. Planning this first date’’ she said with a happy glint in her eyes, she had this hidden spot at a park outside of the city, it wasa beautiful spot that she loved going,she and Wanda would. Go when they needed to get awya formt he team, but she hadn’t broguht a guy there before.. she figured it was a good way to open up a little. More ot Clint and have a picnic dinner there instead of paying to go somehwere were the privacy wasnt a lot.
‘’Hey there mini Barton! ‘’ tony said as he came intot he room a couple minutes after Bucky darted off. He was with steve, sam and Natasha as they all walke din. ‘’Hey you seen bucky anywhere?’’ Steve asked as he looked at ASlessa, ‘’ he is currently locking himself in his room,his heart rate is elevated hevaily and he seems to be having pain in his head,on the left side mostly’’ Friday answered ‘’what the hell is worng with him?’’ Tony asked as he grabbed some scotch ‘’he’s having a panic attack. It happens when his mind is trying to remmeber stuff, the therapist fury is making him see said it’ll happen a lot as they try to restructure his brain, ive been talking to Shuri in wakanda, about maybe helping him.. ill go check on him.’’ Steve said gently but the worry was clear in his vocie as he elft ot go check on his friend.. menawhile bucky was very much panicking.. but he didnt understand why.. and he didnt understand fully why or how it was connected to not only what hydra did to him but also him trying to remember naything from his past.
Cecelia smiled at Clint and nodded’ ‘that’s sounds like the eprfect plan Clint’’ she siad and smiled happily at him ‘’Im a pretty private perosn in general.. so.. keeping it between us an donly saying somehting if someone asks.. is actually tthe best plan ever for me’’ she siad and giggled. A bit.. when he mentioned a date, preferably dinner tomorrow, that gave her an idea‘’I’d liek that.. but not just nay dinner.. i have a uh.. idea, if youre okay with me. Planning this first date’’ she said with a happy glint in her eyes, she had this hidden spot at a park outside of the city, it wasa beautiful spot that she loved going,she and Wanda would. Go when they needed to get awya formt he team, but she hadn’t broguht a guy there before.. she figured it was a good way to open up a little. More ot Clint and have a picnic dinner there instead of paying to go somehwere were the privacy wasnt a lot.
Alessa was at the sink with the others came in and she sighed at Tony "What did I say about calling me that Stank" she sassed back and Steve snorted a laugh. Allie paused when Steve asked about Bucky "Yeah, he was talking about the war and then got up and left" she said a little disheartenedly. "The war? Why?" Tony asked. "I asked him about how things were back then compared to now. It was my stupid mistake okay!?" She said a little agitated. Alessa sighed to herself when Steve went to go check on Bucky and she finished the dishes, her gut was churning with guilt for even asking, she hadn't realized how bad things were for him.
Clint smiled softly at Cecilia as she agreed to his idea, he didn't really think they needed to announce things and make a huge deal out of it. Clint rose his brows when she asked if she could plan it and chuckled "Thats an interesting twist, but I don't see why not. Is there anything I can do to help out?" Clint asked/said, it made him wonder what she had going on in that head of hers, but also made him excited for their first date too.
Alessa was at the sink with the others came in and she sighed at Tony "What did I say about calling me that Stank" she sassed back and Steve snorted a laugh. Allie paused when Steve asked about Bucky "Yeah, he was talking about the war and then got up and left" she said a little disheartenedly. "The war? Why?" Tony asked. "I asked him about how things were back then compared to now. It was my stupid mistake okay!?" She said a little agitated. Alessa sighed to herself when Steve went to go check on Bucky and she finished the dishes, her gut was churning with guilt for even asking, she hadn't realized how bad things were for him.
Clint smiled softly at Cecilia as she agreed to his idea, he didn't really think they needed to announce things and make a huge deal out of it. Clint rose his brows when she asked if she could plan it and chuckled "Thats an interesting twist, but I don't see why not. Is there anything I can do to help out?" Clint asked/said, it made him wonder what she had going on in that head of hers, but also made him excited for their first date too.
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the next day, Cecelia had woken up early, she left th compund to make sure her hidden little spot was perfectly made up. She’s cleane dit up and removed any trash that was laying aorund or got blown intot eh spot.. she even cut down the grass and cleaned up the gazebo she had built there years ago to bring some coziness back to the spot, she was done by noon and headed back tot he compund, by the time she got back it was 12:30 in the afternoon, she hummed happily to herself before heading tot he kitchen, she looked throguh the supplies they had and settled on making a Italian spread for her an Clint’s dinner, she wnated it to be a picnic setting, where they coudl relax, eat, chat and just enjoy their time otgether rather than at some stuffy restaurant, she had told Clint yesterday to meet her int he garage at exactly 5pm, it would take her till. 3pm to cook, then she had an hour to get ready, and sinc eit was a picnic she dindt wnat to go all fancy, so she decided shed wear some jeans, a cute top and some comfy shoes and a alight sweater.
Bucky, the next day was out the door of the compound early, had an emergency therapy session to go to, that would last most of the morning. The night before had shaken him. But he didnt fully understand why. He had talked a bit about his Past with steve, what he remembered and what he didn’t. And had never had a panic attack like that before.. it was.. rattling. So he called his therapist after he talked ot steve the devious night he had everyone’s number in his littl flip phone he used, and sent a short text to Alessa, telling her she wasnt at fault for his panic attack. And that he wnated to tlak to her after his session.. by the time he got back it was already 2pm..he felt tired s mentally exhausted
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the next day, Cecelia had woken up early, she left th compund to make sure her hidden little spot was perfectly made up. She’s cleane dit up and removed any trash that was laying aorund or got blown intot eh spot.. she even cut down the grass and cleaned up the gazebo she had built there years ago to bring some coziness back to the spot, she was done by noon and headed back tot he compund, by the time she got back it was 12:30 in the afternoon, she hummed happily to herself before heading tot he kitchen, she looked throguh the supplies they had and settled on making a Italian spread for her an Clint’s dinner, she wnated it to be a picnic setting, where they coudl relax, eat, chat and just enjoy their time otgether rather than at some stuffy restaurant, she had told Clint yesterday to meet her int he garage at exactly 5pm, it would take her till. 3pm to cook, then she had an hour to get ready, and sinc eit was a picnic she dindt wnat to go all fancy, so she decided shed wear some jeans, a cute top and some comfy shoes and a alight sweater.
Bucky, the next day was out the door of the compound early, had an emergency therapy session to go to, that would last most of the morning. The night before had shaken him. But he didnt fully understand why. He had talked a bit about his Past with steve, what he remembered and what he didn’t. And had never had a panic attack like that before.. it was.. rattling. So he called his therapist after he talked ot steve the devious night he had everyone’s number in his littl flip phone he used, and sent a short text to Alessa, telling her she wasnt at fault for his panic attack. And that he wnated to tlak to her after his session.. by the time he got back it was already 2pm..he felt tired s mentally exhausted
Clint had gotten up a little bit later the next morning, he knew he didn't have to be meeting Cece until five, and he had gone into town before noon to get a nice bottle of wine for the two of them. He picked out what he was going to wear which was just jeams, a golf shirt and a sweater, nothing overly fancy but he wouldn't look like a slob either. He would just have to shower and change in the afternoon before going to meet Cece for five as they agreed.
Alessa didn't entirely believe Bucky, she should have known better,she knew Bucky struggled with his memories and should have never of brought it up. Allie had nothing planned that day, so she was in the one place she knew well, the kitchen. She had made up lunches for everyone for a week, bulk frozen dinners for at least three days so far along with baking, plus she'd done dishes at least four times now. She'd make cupcakes, cookies and muffins and some were in the freezer, some she put in containers for everyone, and kept on going, the kitchen was full of cooked and baked foods and piled/marked containers both in the freezer, fridge and counter tops.
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Clint had gotten up a little bit later the next morning, he knew he didn't have to be meeting Cece until five, and he had gone into town before noon to get a nice bottle of wine for the two of them. He picked out what he was going to wear which was just jeams, a golf shirt and a sweater, nothing overly fancy but he wouldn't look like a slob either. He would just have to shower and change in the afternoon before going to meet Cece for five as they agreed.
Alessa didn't entirely believe Bucky, she should have known better,she knew Bucky struggled with his memories and should have never of brought it up. Allie had nothing planned that day, so she was in the one place she knew well, the kitchen. She had made up lunches for everyone for a week, bulk frozen dinners for at least three days so far along with baking, plus she'd done dishes at least four times now. She'd make cupcakes, cookies and muffins and some were in the freezer, some she put in containers for everyone, and kept on going, the kitchen was full of cooked and baked foods and piled/marked containers both in the freezer, fridge and counter tops.
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Cecelia had finsihed makign all the food for her and Clints date, she had grabbed a bottle of wine to pair with it all not knowing Clint had done the same.. she scored did some light makeup and curled her hair before getting dressed. She grabbed the large black wicker picnic basket she filled up and texted Clint to meet her in the garage,it was almost five so he should. Be ready by now. She made ehr way down to the garage where ehr classic car sat, it was fully restored to its original glory a few years back and tony had added some more modern upgrades to it. She got a blanket ready int he back seat along with the basket in place, she flipped throguh her cd book and found the perfect one for the drive and shoved it into the cd player as she waited for Clint.
Bucky sighed as he walked intot he main living/dining/ kitchen area, he had called steve just befor ehe return to see if he knew where Alessa was Southey coudl talk. When steve mentioned the kitchen bucky figured that was the best palce to look first. He slacked in and sighed a bit ‘’Alessa’’ he siad called otu from behind the girl, making ehr jump.it seemed she was in ehr own world when he startled. Her ‘’srry, didnt mean to scare you. Can we uh.. talk fro a second’’ he. Asked gently as he stepped forward and made her stop and look at him ‘’look what hapepend last night wasnt your fault, and im still not fully sure about what happened, steve mentioned you were feleing bad about it and you really dont have to.. the SHEILD therapist said it was a fear induced panic attack. Form my records, he noted thT HYDRA woul;d induce fear into me everytime I remembered something… so really.. it wasnt your fault at all. ‘’ bucky siad to her gently as he kept a calm and composed air about him.
Cecelia had finsihed makign all the food for her and Clints date, she had grabbed a bottle of wine to pair with it all not knowing Clint had done the same.. she scored did some light makeup and curled her hair before getting dressed. She grabbed the large black wicker picnic basket she filled up and texted Clint to meet her in the garage,it was almost five so he should. Be ready by now. She made ehr way down to the garage where ehr classic car sat, it was fully restored to its original glory a few years back and tony had added some more modern upgrades to it. She got a blanket ready int he back seat along with the basket in place, she flipped throguh her cd book and found the perfect one for the drive and shoved it into the cd player as she waited for Clint.
Bucky sighed as he walked intot he main living/dining/ kitchen area, he had called steve just befor ehe return to see if he knew where Alessa was Southey coudl talk. When steve mentioned the kitchen bucky figured that was the best palce to look first. He slacked in and sighed a bit ‘’Alessa’’ he siad called otu from behind the girl, making ehr jump.it seemed she was in ehr own world when he startled. Her ‘’srry, didnt mean to scare you. Can we uh.. talk fro a second’’ he. Asked gently as he stepped forward and made her stop and look at him ‘’look what hapepend last night wasnt your fault, and im still not fully sure about what happened, steve mentioned you were feleing bad about it and you really dont have to.. the SHEILD therapist said it was a fear induced panic attack. Form my records, he noted thT HYDRA woul;d induce fear into me everytime I remembered something… so really.. it wasnt your fault at all. ‘’ bucky siad to her gently as he kept a calm and composed air about him.
